Lately, I have been reflecting about my life.. I have been depressed for the past few months. There are times that I wanted to break down because of the sadness that I feel. I keep on telling myself that everything happens for a reason, but still, though I seem to project a strong facade, deep down I am weak. Very weak...
I don't know if you will agree with me, but we seem to just think about the negative things happening in our lives, that we tend to forget to be grateful for the blessings that come our way.
These past few weeks, there have been some situations that opened up my eyes and made me realize how fortunate I am than other people.. These lessons in life taught me to be thankful for the littlest and simplest things that I receive each day.. may it be material or not.. I can also say that these situations helped me to humble myself.
*There's this person I know who uses his son's backpack to work (since it's still his child's summer vacation..) -he can't afford to buy his own. =(
*Seeing a poor woman get so excited to eat her sandwich from Potbelly's (courtesy of another customer) because it seems she couldn't afford to buy her own..It also seemed like it was her first time to eat such food.. =(
*My boss telling me that she found an old man outside the church digging the trash can for food.. And when the man found some, he ate it straight from the bin.. =(
I am a spendthrift.. I spend money like there's no tomorrow.. But after realizing that there are other people in the world who struggles so hard to make both ends meet, I'll try very hard to spend my earnings wisely. I'll also be grateful for all the blessings He has been showering upon us.. For the air that we breathe.. For another day..For every meal..For every single thing...
I have also reflected on Father's homily last Sunday.. "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. -Matthew 7:7-8
His homily was very uplifting. He said that we tend to remember God when we need something from him.. Like, "Dear Lord, "Please give me this and that..." But only God knows what's best for us and He gives it to us in his perfect time.. I surrender everything to Him. I lift up my life to Him for He knows the desires of my heart, and knows what's best for me.. Made me realize that in His time, everything's gonna be alright.
"In your time Lord, I will come in Your presence..."
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See my boo New job
Peace of mind A in Anatomy Get into the nursing program
Good Health Pass my subjects this fall
Get another job at the hospital Get my driver's license
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